Friday, February 22, 2008
~The Better To See You With My Dears...
I picked up my new glasses last night...I think it's been about two years since I've been able to see really clear. I am just feeling unbelievably great these days. Sometimes I think I should be pinching myself. How did I get here?
If someone had shown me this world twenty-five years ago...and said this is going to be your life someday, I wouldn't have believed it. It would be so hard for a little self-loathing girl who was too skinny....had braces...wore the wrong clothes...said the wrong things...had no boobs(and teased mercilessly about it)to see herself here.
But,of course, here is exactly where I am. I carry that little girl with me everyday. She still have some very dark corners in her heart that she can't speak of...and I hope someday I will be able to help shed some light in there. But, for right now...I'm not brave enough, and she's not ready. Plugging along with my art...focusing on the moment at hand is definately making me stronger. I've even got to the point where I am going to put some art up for sale online. So this weekend I will take a big breath...and step out to see what will come...
Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!