Friday, February 22, 2008

~The Better To See You With My Dears...

I picked up my new glasses last night...I think it's been about two years since I've been able to see really clear. I am just feeling unbelievably great these days. Sometimes I think I should be pinching myself. How did I get here?

If someone had shown me this world twenty-five years ago...and said this is going to be your life someday, I wouldn't have believed it. It would be so hard for a little self-loathing girl who was too skinny....had braces...wore the wrong clothes...said the wrong things...had no boobs(and teased mercilessly about it)to see herself here.

But,of course, here is exactly where I am. I carry that little girl with me everyday. She still have some very dark corners in her heart that she can't speak of...and I hope someday I will be able to help shed some light in there. But, for right now...I'm not brave enough, and she's not ready. Plugging along with my art...focusing on the moment at hand is definately making me stronger. I've even got to the point where I am going to put some art up for sale online. So this weekend I will take a big breath...and step out to see what will come...

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!


daisies said...

you are so beautiful and everytime i see photos of your house i sigh because it looks so inviting and cozy and full of colour :)

hope your weekend is full of beauty!! and how wonderful that you are putting your art up, that makes me smile! have fun!! xox

pERiWinKle said...

Standing right next to you helping you to put your art up...cannot wait! xx

Del said...

Everytime you speak of Jon I am complemented as a mother. I am so lucky to have you as a daughter-in-law and I constantly talk to my friends about how talented you are. You have hidden talents ( eg.such as singing) that never cease to amaze me. Miss you and see you soon.


megg said...


Good for you! I can't wait to see it! Enjoy your new 'clarity' he he he!

PixieDust said...

You are such a beauty... this post touched me deeply as I know that little girl so well... *sigh

This is YOUR life, filled with art and color, and a gorgeous woman who stares back at you in the mirror -